You Can Be Afraid to Jump & Still Blow Your Own Mind

I was thinking about this lately.

How many times in life we come up to that moment of wanting something new and realizing we have to take some action... but feeling so unsure of how to do it and if we are even qualified to do it. 

When I was a teenager I remember NEEDING to earn a downpayment for my car which equated to 50% of what I was buying it for and knowing that even though I had never earned that much money in one fell swoop... I had to figure it out. There was no other option honestly. 

At the time I had one talent that actually paid me based on my talent and not just how many hours I worked... I was also 16 so people were not super inclined to pay me a lot of money for my time. 

So I took my 1 talent and decided I was going to turn that talent into the money I needed, come hell or high water... I mean I had NO other option!

Know what that talent was? 

You probably would never guess this unless I told you, but it was Rug Hooking! A random craft I had picked up at the urging of my mom. I didn't necessarily enjoy it BUT I did enjoy being paid for it and like I said, it was literally all I had at the time.

So, I convinced my mom to load up in the car and drive me to the next town where there was a shop that I thought would be a good match. I can still feel my anxiety to this day. I sat in the car looking at the shop windows with all the customers walking around and before I could talk myself out of it, I walked in with my examples of work and asked for the owner. 

Luckily, she took a few minutes to let me show her what I did and then I literally said "I take wholesale orders if you are interested and if you place an order I won't sell to anyone else in town" and then I gave her the minimum amount she needed to order to open an account... I'm pretty sure I had a mini panic attack as I stood there waiting for her to respond. You know when seconds turn into eternities?

And lo and behold.... she placed an order for EXACTLY the amount that I needed to manifest. I told her I needed 50% down and she wrote me a check right then. I walked out to the car and you better believe the celebration was HUGE! I was in total disbelief.

I know, I know, this is where we all go

"Yeah this is a typical manifesting story,"except it isn't.

Being that I'm me and I started having to learn about self worth really early in my life, that's not where it ended.

My mom was so proud she told her close friend who also shared the same talent (and was twice my age btw... no hard feelings or anything, lol) I didn't think anything of it but 2 weeks later when I went to deliver the order, my mom's friend was there and she was UNDERSELLING me!

The owners told me they had changed their mind and were going with someone else. I remember looking across the shop at my mom's friend and thinking "You don't get to take this from me. I created this opportunity." I told the owner, that was fine if they wanted to order from someone else HOWEVER, they would still be paying me the full amount for the order. More seconds turned into eternities as they stared at me. They started to say "No, you can have your product back" and I will never forget saying

"I am not leaving until your account is paid." 

And they paid. They paid every single cent.

And because the Universe is benevolent, I got to keep a large portion of the product and resell it, earning the money twice. To this day, I know that I was paid twice because I had the courage to jump and then hold the ground on my value.

And that's how it is sometimes. Sometimes you have to resource within yourself the courage to jump and MAKE an opportunity happen for you & then even though you've done that, you have to hold fast on your self worth or some other thing that's threatening to make it fall apart. You have to believe in yourself and your value so much, that no matter what happens outside of you, no matter how others act, you get what you came for. 

It is also mean that all it takes is ONE single talent to create what you want in your life. You don't need a thousand skills, you need one. You can add more later but jumping is what creates those shifts, not always acquiring more skills or courage.

Sometimes you just need the type of courage that says "I know we are freaked out and this is terrifying BUT we are doing it anyway. Fear sit down, we are going for a ride."

So tell me, what is your talent that you can use right now to create your own shift?

Are you feeling brave enough to have so much faith in yourself that you decide to jump or is fear still in the driver's seat?

And if you need support, I'm here. I get it because I've been there more than one time in my life. 

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